After much thought Andy and I have decided to fill out the paperwork to become foster parents. We are terrified. Or at least I know I am.

You see these last two months I’ve really wanted to blog about it. I wanted to let everyone know what we were doing and how the process was going and then one night Andy said to me “what if we don’t go through with it?” And I froze. I mean…he’s right. We started this process with an open mind and we really just would like to get some more information and decide if this is something we should do…but when all is said and done we might decide…it’s not. He asked me what would I say then? What would I write?

I figured out what I would write, hence this post…and at least we tried. I’ve talked to so many people who have all said “we thought about it…but I don’t think its for us”. How do you know that if your not well informed? I’m not saying everyone who said that wasn’t, I’m just saying that in the month we’ve started the process we’ve learned things we never knew. Like how specific you can be in your needs. How much they work with you on finding children who can openly come into your family. How compassionate they are…and of course…how bad they need more people to say yes.

So as we fill out the paperwork and get our physicals and background checks…I’m sure there’s going to be more that I will learn and probably pass on. But I want to be upfront with anyone reading this…we might not

sign the dotted line at the end….and I’m ok with that. We’re trying. We’re researching. We’re learning. And we’re communicating with each other about fears and promises and dreams. Even the journey is already enjoyable. And if or when it ends I will be able to hold my head up and say “we did everything we could to make it happen”.